I am a body of deep royal sadness.
Tangible moving living breathing
The waves roll in
The waves roll out
Like captured salt brine water
In the sea
The wisdom sadness lives forever
Birthing swelling within me
Empty shallows of skin
Sandbars of golden wheat
Peeking from beneath hot bath
Breasts once teeming
Now empty and hanging across an almost boyish chest
Hands once trembling with the need to give
Now depressed and deflated
Holding nothing
Hips, spread and stretched
The skin peeled back - lashed red striations -
I have drowned in feeling myself a mother.
I can't imagine what you are feeling this time of year... every year as Sophie's birthday approaches. I am so very sorry for your loss.
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