When I turned 30 I had a mid-life crisis. I started panicking because, in my opinion, I had nothing to show for myself. I was still going to school part-time and it was taking me forever to finish. I was in a lukewarm relationship with no real future. I was living in the middle of nowhere without friends or family around. As a result, I reassessed my life and took inventory of what I wanted to change. I decided to go back to school and just take the lumps as a poor college student.
Now looking through the lens of time, I see that all of those things that I felt were disadvantages, (living in the middle of nowhere, no friends or family, lukewarm relationship), actually were all things that helped me so much in reaching my goals. When I started school full-time, I could focus completely on school because I had no friends or family to distract me. Because I lived in the middle of nowhere, my cost of living was totally affordable and I was able to work part-time, still pay all of my bills, and attend a wonderful private university. The lukewarm relationship that I was in taught me so many valuable lessons on independence and managing my finances.
Now that it is time for me to turn 40, I’m not panicking like I thought I would. I received my Bachelor of Science degree in Political Science in 2003 with a cumulative average of 2.97, (I usually round up thoughJ). I ended up moving back home to Maryland and met the love of my life, I’m married and I have a beautiful angel of a baby girl. She loves me and the first and only words that she has said for the past two months non-stop is Mama! Mama mama! Over and over again. I never grow tired of hearing it because she says it with different intensities; sometimes very low and soft, and sometimes very loud with passion!
I have “outted” myself to co-workers and friends about my age and the genuine shock that I have received in response makes me feel good. So I write all of this to say that I’m ok with turning 40, I do have some other goals that I would still like to reach, but even if I am never given anything more in life, I will be happy with what I have at this very moment.